prioritize yourself
Been a minute, been a while! i have been prioritizing myself lately. giving myself time to just be. i’m constantly working on getting my shit together + staying away from distractions. not that my blog is a distraction, but i just haven’t been able to dedicate my time to creating the content that i want. i’ve been working on my new budget plans, too, ya know? getting my financials right so i can get back to shopping + styling + doing the things that i love. before 2020 ended, there were a few things i needed to get done and... i did it! nothing too major, but definitely necessary.
1. restore my skin
life was just tearing my poor skin apart, ya’ll! i did not want stress to be showing on my face, honey. i needed something quick and my sister recommended the ordinary. so i went on their site, racked up while they had a sale + now i have been restored.
2. save, save + save
i have three savings account. yes - it’s that serious. rainy day savings, bitch don’t touch savings and a spare change/dollar bills savings. once i finish paying this debt off, i can continue to build on my savings while still having a healthy checking account. my ultimate goal is to just have money and not have to always check what’s in my account. lol.
my car is paid off. three credit cards are already paid off. i have two credit cards and a personal loan left (i’m not counting my student loans).
oh wait! chile, i forgot i applied for a nordstrom card while on my break buying some margiela pants! yes - i slipped up + had a moment. lol. i ended up returning the pants ($755, i’m ashamed) because my waist was too small for them, and i bought christmas gifts instead. lol so that makes three credit cards and a personal loan. good lord! i’ll make it though. my personal loan + nordstrom will be paid off in about two-three months. i have some ways to go with my bloomies + other personal credit card, but i’ll get there!
i’ve been doing my monthly budget + i’m planning on creating something really special that i hope people will love; something really useful + necessary! i bring my budget book with me to work everyday + map things out because once my money is straight, i will definitely have less damn problems. i try not to let finances stress me out, but sometimes it can be overwhelming. when i bring my book with me, i feel better because it’s a visual of my progress. it shows me that i’m ahead of the game and i’m so much closer to reaching those financial goals that i’ve set for myself.
3. picture perfect.
i was patient with myself + didn`t force myself to be productive then good things happened. i was able to pull out my canvas + create something that is magical to me. i just had to give myself time and take the pressure off. i was feeling down because i was in this creative slump. i didn’t feel inspired. i didn’t feel artistic, skilled or anything. i didn’t feel anything. applying pressure to myself to produce something didn’t help. i would pick up a pencil and hate every mark on the paper. i was unhappy with the bit of art i created simply because it wasn’t created with the same joy i once had. i was just doing it to feel productive. i soon realized that being busy ≠ being productive.
i uploaded a timelapse of the piece that i created/am in the process of creating. i’m still undecided on if i will add to it. i just wanted to capture the essence of what i was feeling, so i don’t want to overdo it. you can watch that here
4. wardrobe consolidation
i hold onto things because of emotional attachment, including clothing that i don’t even wear. i’m working on breaking that habit, so i’ve been donating bags of clothes that i know will be of good use to someone in need. i’m using this time to reduce my wardrobe, mainly so i can buy staple items and things that i really wanted. lol. i haven’t purchased alot of things lately besides my pyer moss sneakers (which i’ll post soon although it’s been months lol) and those margiela jeans i returned. i have a very small list of things that i would like to add to my wardrobe, but i’m in no rush to buy them. just gotta keep them in my wish list for now. if they’re not available when i’m ready, it wasn’t for me... but best believe i’m going to search the innanetz for them first! LOL.
5. knowledge is power
i made a list of books that i wanted to read in order to become more well-rounded in the business side of fashion, considering i want to launch my own collection one day. my mom asked me to share it and she bought some books for me for christmas. i started reading the fashion business manual and so far, it reinforces my thoughts about the business and my approach: it is hard and if you’re not business saavy, you will drown in your tears. lol. despite having a degree in marketing, i actually hate doing the work to market my projects. i prefer just creating and letting things fall into place, but that’s not helping my business at all. so in 2020, i’m going to be a better businesswoman!
jassy