things change
what do you think about change? are you resistant because you believe that changing means you’re not being real with yourself? in actuality, recognizing that change is necessary shows just how real you are. we have to change in some way, in order to grow & continue to develop. if you are resistant to change, you are a constant... not evolving, at a standstill.
i didn’t want to change. i was consistently engaging in negative and self-sabotaging behaviors. i have to say, no matter what way i tried to spin it, i was toxic to myself. i wore rose colored lens over my cat eyed miu miu’s, telling myself that my decisions were fine and i would be okay. but they weren’t and i wasn’t okay. i was making impulsive, immature decisions as if i was still a teenager but I am an adult—an adult with bigger and more important responsibilities. i had to change. there are things that i don’t want to do and i have to suck it up & do it anyway. i understand that there are other factors that may affect my willingness to do it, but i have to figure out ways to find happiness in things i don’t want to do. for instance, working. there are days when i enjoy it and definitely times when i don’t. when i`m working and i’m in a mood, i try to find things to help me manage and get through the day.
i find that eating my fave foods/snacks help lol. i was introduced to my newest addiction, the doughnut project, by my dear friend, brooke (of sincerelyemilybrooke). an instant pick-me-up was located just a few blocks away! i perused the site to see what would catch my eye (i love pretty treats), but most importantly, what would satisfy my sweet tooth. i chose the chandonut, a sweet and delectable donut infused with rosé and covered in pink frosting garnished with edible rose petals & gold shimmer. i mean, if this ain’t broke but high maintenance, then what is?! now when i need a drink, i can just grab this donut to lighten my mood.
the shop has many other tasty looking choices, but i’ve had this donut three times and have not been tempted to stray yet. i just might cry if they discontinue selling it. however, life will go on and i will too because things change. what are some of your favorite pick-me-ups?
jassy